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2010-12-31 || 2010-12-31
Au Revoir 2010
How I wish I can be half bothered to put up pictures of this year.... but these 3 will do for now. I have more but for some reason I like these 3 a lot so here. :)
2010 has been... forgettable. If I could describe it one word. I'd say that because my memory is horrendous, but also because nothing stellar has happened this year. Most of the time I feel like I've been waiting for something to happen. Like I've been waiting for something that I know is going to occur, yet I don't and there's no such thing and in the meantime I've submitted myself to the mundane but necessary things of life. School, the usual things you have to do to live and so on.
Spiritually, I faltered quite a bit this year. Even this month and now as I speak I've not been in a mood to do quiet time for a very long time. I'll be spending new year's cleaning my house (I know, how epic) and I hope I'll read the bible after hugging my mum and family when the clock strikes 12. I've had some devils to fight as well, most of which I thank God for the friends I have and continue to have and continue to see me through even though I can be so shitty all the time. My eyes are getting wet.
I remember this one time when I was struggling with God. I've never said this but yeah, I wanted to overcome it myself and with some questioning to some friends. I remember sitting in front of my laptop with ed on the other end frustrated with our skype continuously getting disconnected and me on the other end tremulous. When everything was finally quite stable, I started telling her how I was feeling and I started to cry a bit. It's strange, and also a bit loser to cry to a monitor. Yet to my surprise, I found strength in a non-christian and if anything that's one moment I'd take away from 2010. It's easy to find a Christian to tell you to believe, and it's ever so rare to find a non-christian telling you to have faith in God. I wont' say my spiritual mini struggle took a turn there but if I could choose to remember something that was it.
Other than that, I guess Michelle's passing would take the same spot, top significance that is. I don't really feel like talking about it, so I shall just leave it at that.
This year is also a year where... I feel like I blanked out most of the time. And.. oh man I don't feel like blogging already but yeah, hahahaha some lousy blogger I am.
In a short sentence, 2010 was nice, but that's all I can say. It wasn't spectacular in any sense, yet it was nice. It was dark. It was "revelational" as well - thought about when on earth Im gonna get attached, decided to confront some touchy issues and on and on. I could go on infinitely. But I shall bid goodbye here.
Hope you have a nice year ahead :) I want to sleep